(i) feels like you've got it all figured out when you told me you didn't want us anymore and you're leaving for malibu. my feet had to clutch the ground, begging for it to not let me go - the same way you did. because i did not want to fall - the same way i did, for you. said you're chasing your dreams, so i had to stop running because you're on another lap...

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i. tear the wall break the damlike the river the hurt flows away like the waves the sadness washes away ii. you have to love in order to be loved so i pour it all till it overflows doing so i fall in a spiral so slow i have so much love for you, them and him but never myself for i wasnt as deserving iii. it was blurry version of myself i thought i...

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i dont know about you, but it took me long enough to finally realize that us, was never meant for us.cause even after three months of your farewell, i could still see you next to me when i woke up in the morning; smell your ironwood perfume lingering in the bedroom; hear your husky velvety voice calling out for my name; and even feel your rosy lips leaving a kiss on my cheek when you...

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well, i guess no one can have everything. i must learn to celebrate when i fail. inner growth and fortitude follow the sting, right? won't i rise with holy wind in my sails? yet they always seem to get what i want, door after door flung open. why are  the keeper of doors, who haunt the hopeful halls of fate and desire so partial to them, but not to me? yes, i do feel sorry for myself—don't, brother,...

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my friend told me that i am too nice for my own good. that one day i'm just gonna get hurt from all the kindness i've been giving away cause at some point, people are gonna be taking 'em for granted and i am gonna be left with nothing.  i know that.  in fact, i kinda welcomed it cause like i said, i'm not worth for anything more. though recently i've been sick and annoyed...

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depression as a stand-up comedy show for everything about it is a joke. for those who doesn’t have it - they're the audience. first day of showing - the ticket sold out do they really care, we had our doubt perhaps it’s only for the gram and clout they stormed in bearing signs of lies of what they discerned as proper and wise guess they forgot to empathise. backstage - we were rattled to the...

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having the mood and the feel to express whatever i'm feeling thru writing, is as hard as doing so by telling and sharing it with others. and as much as i try and believe that i should hammer down these high walls around me, it just so happened that i always did so at the wrong time. and it drove me to keep on building and not breaking them just like i wish and hope...

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